LIFES BETTER TOGETHER: A Journey (part 2) --- The Dreaded Due Date.

07 February 2014

If you are new to the blog, or haven't yet read part 1 of our journey, you can do so HERE. I am slowly catching everyone up to where we currently are on our journey towards expanding our family. The next entry that I will copy and paste below was written in April of 2013.

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Today is April 8, 2013.

We are two weeks away from what would have been my due date. A day that I once looked forward to, has become a day that I'm dreading. I had hoped that I would at least be pregnant again by my due date, but I'm not.

My doctor told me that I would most likely be pregnant again within a few months- spring at the latest. Spring is here, and we are still waiting; still hoping. The first couple of months after we lost our baby were not easy for me. Liiiiiiike I'd see a pregnancy or birth announcement on Facebook and then next thing I know, I'd be bawling my eyes out. I wasn't sad or upset with my friends- I just couldn't help but wonder why it was everyone else's turn, but not mine...?

Deep down, I always knew the answer to that question. The Lord has his own timing, and just because things aren't working out that way for me, doesn't mean I can't celebrate other's joys. Instead of feeling sorry for myself, I am instead filled with love, gratitude, and patience. Sure, I may have moments where I slip up, (don't we all?) but it's nothing a little prayer can't fix. I've found that having a positive attitude through trials makes all of the difference. Everything will work out and will happen in the Lord's timing. I put my life in the hands of the Lord, and have faith in Him.

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4 comments:

UnknownFebruary 8, 2014 at 1:31 AM
You are so amazing for sharing your story with the blog world!
Justine LFebruary 9, 2014 at 3:38 PM
Your story, hard as it is to tell, is a gift. Thank you for your courage and grace!
MARY IN SCOTLAND February 9, 2014 at 6:23 PM
Prayers for both of us in our journey. I'm grateful I don't have miscarriage to add to my list. What a warrior you are! Keep your chin up! I'll keep mine up too.
AshleyFebruary 9, 2014 at 10:25 PM
During the wait of everything you have to keep pushing yourself! There are times where it feels like it will never happen. You have a positive outlook and like you said, HE has his own timing. I hope your time comes soon:)

Thanks...for commenting!!